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Sapphire - 13 years old

Although I can see through this layer of anger, I can see my mum underneath, more scared and more fragile than ever before.

It's hard to have a mum with cancer and I guess that's the same for any other close family member. But your mum's different, She’s the person who carried you, conceived you and cared for you more than anybody else.

She’s irreplaceable, and the worse part of it is there is nothing you can do. I see her merging into this person who looks like your mum, but isn’t.

This person is always angry and shouts at everyone, says no one cares about her, although we do more than ever. Although I can see through this layer of anger, I can see my mum underneath, more scared and more fragile than ever before.

I wish I could help, but I can’t quite reach her, this mask is too strong, it overwhelms her, and in its own way, makes her worse. I wish to see the day when she takes it off, and lets out how she truly feels, without anger, just love. But she’s afraid and I would be too if I were her.

Page updated 13 October 2014

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