Smileyriley - 15 years old

I now feel really alone, I couldn't talk to my sister because she is so angry, my little brother doesn't get how serious it is.

My mum was completely normal. When I came off the bus one day my dad was picking me up instead. He told me what had happened but he didn't tell me at that point that it was cancer.

The next day he told me that they suspected my mum had a brain tumour grade 3. The only thing I did was cry and to be honest I didn't know why I was crying, I just heard the word cancer and burst into tears.

I told my closest friends but begged them not to tell anyone else, I wanted to seem and be treated normally. I now feel really alone, I couldn't talk to my sister because she is so angry, my little brother doesn't get how serious it is.

I get mixed messages from everyone. My dad told me she might not live the next four years but my mum just acts normal and plans things for the coming years like everything is normal. At the same time my mum seems so different as she’s always forgetting things and she seems completely different to what she used to be like.

I just don't know what to do at all and I don't want to talk to the macmillan nurse that comes round as it all seems so surreal. Hopefully my mums treatment will be successful.

Page updated 5 September 2013