ok so i wrote on here very soon after my dad passed away, I find it good to hear stories from people who have lost their sense of normal. I still cry, a lot, which to be honest i am not ashamed of i think that my life was switched upside down and its still not right. Home doesn't feel the same anymore, sometimes i remember things i did with my dad, just silly little things around the house but it nice to remember that because we were happy.
I remember the funeral and i remember walking into the church and seeing all the people that were there because they loved my dad it was insane to see the amount of people that he had touched around him.
Im so happy i had him for the first and most amazing 12 years of my life, i suppose its strange celebrating things without him like my birthday but i know that if he was here he would make sure i was always smiling because thats the type of person he was.
If your parent is suffering from cancer and you don't really know how to feel then i would suggest that you spend as much time as you possibly could because they love you no matter what and making memories with them is the best thing you could ever do. I know that it will be hard if they are seriously ill, no longer around or even getting better. Its the hardest thing in the world to see the ones you love most in pain, but stay smiling because when you smile they smile and that gives them happiness and positivity.
My heart goes to all of you here because you aren't here for no reason. I love you all xx
Page updated 13 June 2017